Well, my second quarter in the high school starts tomorrow, and I am glad. I guess you could call my first quarter here in the HS a bit of a "disaster". I forgot assignments, blew off/procrastinated on all of my school work, and then had the balls to lie to my parents about it. Sadly for me, in this new age of technology, there is a little thing called E-mail where all my teachers can contact my parents and let them know about all of the work that I didn't do. I don't know why I have not learned my lesson yet, considering that I have been in the same situation on and off since the seventh grade; however, I keep digging myself into this hole again and again. Each time I do, the end result is always the same...I get grounded. Now, I don't like to be grounded. I'm sure that most people feel the same way, but now some of my teachers say that I need a support class like i had throughout almost all of middle school. I don't really mind being in a support class. I do not care if people think I'm special ed, but a support class requires a free period. I am a freshman STACie, so my schedule is absolutely full during the day. Now, my teachers have thought about this and came up with one simple solution...to leave STAC. When Ms. McManus brought this subject up to me my answer was just, "NO" , but my parents say that if second quarter is a repeat of first, then that will happen. That is one of the last things I want. Not only do I get in trouble, but now that I am in high school, my grades actually count for something. Even though I understand all of the meterial, I have low grades because of homework. So if I want to go to college, I better get my act together while I am still a freshmen.
With second quarter starting tomorrow, Luke suggested writing something on my blog every day for a little while to help me disiplin myself. I think this will help me because half my problem is that I dont have the self-disiplin to tell myself when its time to put down my guitar, sign off of facebook, and start my homework. This is the first of those daily enteries. I have already started my task of staying ahead on second quarter. (I actually did my english homework even though it's not due untill tuesday. Like ohhhh my gawd!) I think the biggest thing problem that I will face this quarter is my battel with procrastination. I procrastinate to the point where it's unrealistic to get the assignment done in the ammount of time that I leave myself. My guidence counceler is also putting me on weekly progress reports that will be E-mailed to my parents every week so I can't lie to get myself out of trouble and I just have to take it like a man untill I learn to do the work.
I'm optomistic about second quarter and hope that it turns out for the best.
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Good. I'm delighted to see you blogging everyday. It is a discipline - a Practice. Like meditation or brushing your teeth. Because, while passion is a wonderful thing that can bring us great energy, passion doesn't actually get things done. Passion builds up a pressure, but the valve must be opened and the work started and kept at. Look at any successful person - artistic and otherwise - and you'll see more discipline than passion. THe whole cast of your play has passion, but what good is that without the work of the rehearsals? Want to perform on opening night solely on passion?
ReplyDeleteWe are all doomed to repeat lessons. A lot. I procrastinate too on some things. I find after I finish something that took a lot of energy and discipline and passion that I want to watch TV for a month and forget everything. And my life feels like it goes by on those days, and I hate myself.
Doing things, getting things done, will always make you feel good about yourself, while not doing things will make you hate yourself. Self-esteem is really about that simple. Even cleaning a bathroom is a step up at times. Especially if you clean it well.
What do you need me to do to help you?
Luke